Of course

I believe in true love. I don't believe in love at first sight. But I suppose the first time you see the person youa re eventually going to fall in love with is kind of love at first sight.

It seems to me that people always think of being alone as a bad thing. until not long ago I would have included myself in this group of people. Recently, however, i realised that at the end of the day, we really are all alone. but this isn't a bad thing. I find this idea empowering. I like the fact that at the end of the day, it all comes down to me. I do not need to realy on anyone else and no one else has to rely on me. My life is own my own hands. I ahve great friends, a great mother, great pets and a great girlfriend, and i know that they would always be there for me in times of doubt, worry, depressionand trouble. but really, I am the only one who can pull myself out of what ever rough waters i may fall into. And this doesn't scare me. I've saved myself once, I can do it again. I've realised I'm a strong swimmer. I jsut wish other people could realise how strong they are too. I wish I was better at helping people realise tehir potential as well. I don't believe anyone is worthless. Everyone has potential. Some people have harder surroundings than others, and some people may never have the opportunity to realise theirs without the aid of others. But a lot of people I know just seem too scared to take the plunge. I wish I could just find someway to show them not to be scared, to have courage and confidence. But I guess some journeys we have to take alone.

To quote Felix Adler:
"We stand, as it were, on the shore, and see multitudes of our fellow beings struggling in the water, stretching forth their arms, sinking, drowning, and we are powerless to assist them."

Hopefully they will all learn how to swim to join us on the shore.

My previous Album of my life:
"oughta know" by alanis morrissette
"mmbop" by hanson
"spice up your life" by the spice girls
"imaginary" by evanescence
"jesus of suburbia" by greenday
"mary jane" by alanis morrisette
"keeper" by yellowcard
"way away" by yellowcard
"the unnamed feeling" by metallica
"in the end" by linkin park

Updated:
"A Little Ray of Sunshine"
"hey Mickey"
"Ironic" by Alanis Morrissette
"Mmmbop" Hanson
"Wanna Be" spice girls
"Spice up your life" spice girls
"Unpretty" TLC
"fell In Love With a girl"
"She Fuckin' Hates Me" Puddle of Mud
"Lose Yourself" Eminem
"Imaginary" Evanescence
"Jesus of Suburbia" Greenday
"8 Mile road" Eminem
"Kissed a Girl"
"Perfect" Simple Plan
"Waking The Demon" Bullet for my Valentine
"Mary Jane" alanis morrissette
"Way Away" yellowcard
"Unnamed feeling" metallica
"In The end" linkin park
""Numb" Linmin park
"Sound of Silence" Simon and Garfunkel
"mY IMMORTAL" EVANESCENCE
Interlude
"Surfing USA"
"All Summer long"
"Extraodrinary girl"
"Call me When you're sober"
"Mr brightside" The Killers
Interlude
"What i go To school for" Busted
"Song To say Goodbye" Placebo
"When i'm With You" Simple Plan
"Thank U" alanis morrissette
"Boom" P.O.D.
"Chicago" Sufjan Stevens


I'll gte back to this.

Last night was great.
After finishing work at MCS at 3, going to the christmas party where Anna go pissed within 30 mintues, then going home at 4, I went to job No. 2 as a waitress at Sbor de Espana.
It ucked at first ebause I was hungry, tired and it was busy and noody was leaving any food on their plate. Finally, I grabbed some elft over Paella and the chefs gave me some food. Lisa then gave me a MASSIVE shot of Tequila which I had to take in two shots with salt and lime. We were then dancing aroudn to ABBA and other 70s/80s mucis with our gay custoemrs. it was like fame. I was pretty drunk from the tequila. We then hung otu at the bar, with Lisa calling Tash and I lesbians. I was havign good fun with (drunken) lisa and Tash. Tash and I had a good convo. We then had more tequila and a vodka red bull each. We chatted for ages, but then i decided Is houdl go meet Lucy at the townie for her 18th.As I was walking down King St I was singing Beat it by Fall out boy while playing air guitar. I was a happy drunk. I walked around the townie, coudln;t find her (especially since I was drunk), called her, found her out the back with Erin. Erin is awesome! Pink braces, an afro that is soft as silk, and the most amazing voice and smile! We hit it off. We then went to the toilet, but I didn't need to pee, and there was another lady there, so I let her go. I sat on the sink, and as I was drunk I was telling everyone who came to the sink taht i was a soap dispenser. We met a few cool people through our toilet antics 9we were talking about tattoos and hair), including Michelle, a woman with a tattooo on her wrist and crooked teeth, Claire, a short skinny, gorgeou person, and Erin #2, who had bright pink hair and who was a vegan. We went and hung with Calire and her friends, then went oytside and hung with Claire's friends, then met some enw people and sat with them I sat next to a really pretty lesbian.I stole someone

s hat, erin sat on my kneww, we drank beer and cider, and were merry. There was a gfirl from Canada who the lesbian was obviosuly smitten bym, but she had a bf in Canada, otherwise theyw ould be together. She was very nice.
Lucy and Erin had to go, so we said our goodbyes and went out the front, where we met a cool busker whule walking up towards the taxis. I'd given him 50 cents earlier. We hung out with him singing and taking turns on the guitar while tyring to get people to give him money. lots of hugging and dancing was done.
There was a gya girl who was with another gay girl and this guy, and she seemed off her face from soemthing. I was a bit worried about her, as it looked pretty shifty. Erin hailed me a taxi after we said goodbye to our busker, who gave Lucy a CD, but this guy we had been talking to didn't realise it was for me anf got in. I didn't mind. We then waved our arms at another Taxi until he drove up. Then I went home with my eyes closed in the taxi. it felt like I was flying. It felt like we were going to crash constantly, so it was extremly exhilarating. When i got home, I went to the park with Bella and Penny and played guiatr, calling them occasonally so i didn't lose them.
When I got home, I sat and watched the L Word whil,e eating chocokates that were left in the table.
I then got into bed with aching legs and fell asleep straight away.
The end.

Got a job as a receptionist at MCS during the day and as a waitress at a Tapas Restaurant in Newtown on Friday and Saturday nights. Woo....

Schoolies Was…

 

Schoolies was....

Coco-Pops

Skinny dipping

Braless

Sandy

Rock pools

Inky legs

Settlers of Catan

1000 Blank White Cards

Nightly drinks

Waves

Ocean

Lagoon

Goanna

 

Parrots

Kookie

The Eagle

Sleeping Bags

Mattresses

yes

The Things I've Learned In The Past 18 Years:

1. Sometimes it's better to say nothing.
2. Sometimes it's better to say everything.
3. Happiness isn't forever
4. Sadness isn't forever
5. Things can't stay perfect forever
6. Things can't stay bad forever
7. It's best to only worry about the things that are REALLY important
8. Friends are one of the most valuable things in the world
9. If you want something bad enough, you can get it
10. It is more important to like someone than love them
11. Words should be chosen wisely
12. Hate is like a bad cold. It's symptoms are not always obvious, but they are detrimental to a person's mental health. Fortunately, like a cold, it is not a permanent illness.
13. Some love is like a cold
14. The best love is like a  terminal illness that lasts for the rest of your life.

The People I've Met In The Past 18 Years:

Year 4, age 10: Ms Kasunchuk (excuse the spelling where ever you are)
I never did a single piece of homework before I had you. I owe you my place at Fort St. You taught me the meaning of study. Now I just wish I could remember it...

Year 7, age 12: Maeve
I always planned on doing drugs before I met you. You showed me the repercussions. You were also my first real crush, the firs girl I ever fell in "love" with after meeting only once. You taught me what it felt like to have a broken heart, and that it was best not to fall head over heels unless you were sure. You taught me not to get started too young, and showed me how bad it could be to lose your childhood. You taught me not to believe everything someone tells you.

Year 8, age 14: Eddie
You made me the person I am today. You made me stronger, even though you forced me to overcome every obstacle you could think of. You have been with me my whole life, and will probably be with me for the rest of it. Our relationship will always be one of love and hatred. I thank you, yet I despise you for what you've put me through. I know our battle together is not over. I don't think it will ever be. But you have become weaker. I have taken from you your strength and used it against you. Although you now mostly lie dormant, I feel as though you lie in wait, anticipating my moments of weakness so that you may strike, once again battling for dominance. But I know you now. I know how you work and when you will attack. My defence is always up, waiting for your next assault. Our lives will be forever entwined. Mine will always be dominant though.